“If only I had…!”

“A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new.”
~ Albert Einstein


This week I was asked, “Do you have any regrets about your life?”                                                                                                                          Perfection at last

Every time I get asked this question, it takes me by surprise because the concept of regret no longer enters my awareness.

I did what I did in the past with the limited understand of life I had at the time. My life was driven by my thoughts, beliefs and experiences up to that point. I did what I thought was best, needed or required in each situation.

But even if I did regret some action in the past, so what? I can’t go back and change it even if I wanted to.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t do some very stupid things, but I don’t dwell on them. The recurring thought, “If only I could go back and change things” is futile. It only traps one in thinking about a past that is gone and can’t be changed.

Instead, I laugh at how naive and foolish I was. I recognize my lack of understanding and experience, but I can also see how this situation broadened my understanding of life, helped me to make better choices, and accept consequences for my actions. Most of all it helped to show me how to live.

The deepest insight I had from looking back on my life is that Universal Intelligence doesn’t make mistakes. Each one of those experiences has broadened my awareness of life. Each one came into my awareness at the perfect time and in the perfect place. These were teaching moments, sometimes the experiences had to be repeated a few times before I got the insight and made changes.

From this isight I have been able to look back at the interconnectedness of my life experiences and know that all those situations – happy, tragic, depressed, fulfilling and just plain ridiculous – all happened to expand my awareness and to benefit my human experience.

I now see how each experience synchronistically lead to the next forward step in my life. As I took the next step forward I was doing so with a greater awareness and appreciation of life,  knowing that whatever was happening in the moment could change in a blink of an eye.

Much deeper was the understanding that I really didn’t know where my life was heading and I didn’t know what I needed BUT, Universal Mind did. I could relax and let a much greater Intelligence guide my ship. Life is so much easier and so much more fun now that I have let go of the wheel.

How about you? Think about the worst thing you ever did. Honestly, considering where you were at that moment could you really have done anything else? What did you learn from it? Did it change the direction of your life? What did you gain from it? With this understanding, would it serve you any good to keep thinking, “If only I had…?”